I forgot how unpleasent Ensure really is.
I had planned not to eat today, and I left the house this morning without eating breakfast.
Then I got to work and knew that I had to email E and T and tell them about my binging and purging last night. I was so disappointed in myself when I put it in writing for my treatment team to see that I decided to temper the bad news with good news.
I went into the kitchen at work and found a can of Ensure, poured it into a coffe mug, added all the ice cubes I could fit in the mug, took it back to my desk and drank it. Unfortunatly, one of the “benefits” of working at a clinic is that we have Ensure in our kitchen 
Lucky me.
So when I emailed E and T I was able to tell them that yes, I binged and purged, but that yes I drank my breakfast.
One healthy choice at a time. One healthy choice at a time. Baby steps.
